Our Little Ladybug

Love our sweet girl...

Madison's prayer last night as she was 'putting T to sleep"
"Dear Jesus, we love you.  Thank you for Mommy and Daddy.  Thank you for Baby Taylor.  Thank you for the snow outside.  Amen"

True Beauty

This post was written in my mind as I paced my house with a newborn that has taken several tries to fall asleep.  I am still wearing my purple sweatpants, not bra, and a t-shirt that smells like old, dry milk (it's almost 3:00).  My hair is pulled back for the 40th day in a row... half of it falling out.  I pass by the mirror in the bathroom to check to see if I have a sleeping baby and see the tired eyes that I have once again today.  I feel like I have barely talked to my 3-year old more-less played with her or taught her anything.  My 2 year old wants me to hold him and I have had to tell him several times that I can't... followed by tears.  Then I remember readying the facebook post of a fellow Mom that seems that she has it all together and then a blog of another who seems to be supermom (clean house, happy and smart kids, a perfect husband)...   I'm definitely not feeling like the young, beautiful lady that I have so often worked hard to achieve and definitely not feeling like the supermom that I wish I was...  I think "Is this really what God has made me for???"...

Thankfully I 'heard' the verse that I have said to myself many times lately...

1 Peter 3:3-4

New International Version (NIV)

³ Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. ⁴ Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

Today I choose to believe that God sees beauty differently... He sees beauty in the tired eyes of a Mom that has done her best today. 

... I'm sure I will need to re-read this post tomorrow...